Tears to Joy: Finding God's Love Through the Heartache

Tears To Joy, I am a thirty six year old Christian woman and I have been through just about everything you can go through. It's been mostly bad stuff since I was a little girl. I was fatherless,abused, molested, and neglected very young. As a teenager history repeated itself and I was abused in every form by my first love Michael. The rest of my teenage and adult years the same thing happened again. I used men, drugs, and alcohol to deal with the abuse. My boyfriend's constantly abused me which caused me mental problems, and they also cheated on me. This caused me trust issues so I didn't trust anyone. I became Saved (A Christian) at nineteen years old a d then two years later was told I had two weeks to live. I found out that I had full blown AIDS at age twenty one and I took it very hard. I became upset with God and I became even more insecure even with God. I began partying to get rid of the pain and anger I was feeling. I made a mess of my life doing that. I tried to find love in all the worldly things, but never found it. I found love, joy, and freedom from my painful life through Jesus Christ."In this life we will go through a lot of pain. Jesus is there with us through it all. It takes a lot of love, and patience with God to get through the pain of this life. That is when God shall take our tears to joy."